it has been a while..

Hey cub,
How long has it been?  A lot has happened and yes.. recap:

• on 18th of January 2013: solemnization of cub and bow
• On 19th of January 2013: reception at bow's
• On 26th of January 2013: reception at cub's
• 27th-29th of January 2013: our first honeymoon at Tioman Island.
• 20th April 2013: bow's Last Mentrual Period (LMP).
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  . meaning there will be junior Cub+Bow coming.

love you Cub. InsyaAllah until jannah..

entry while cuti

dear Cub, thanks sgt2 support Bow yg sedang stress memanjang ni.. Paeds mmg tough.. nak makan pun xsempat, balik je dah flat sgt2.. mkn solat then tdo.. cub, bow mintak maaf sbb bow selalu marah cub mase ni.. sbb bow stress sgt2.. awak pun sgt2 supportive..

persiapan kawin pun mcm bnyk sgt xabis lg ni.. so time cub xde ni, sy kene cari pakej sewa baju lelaki and perempuan yg affordable utk kenduri belah awk pulak Cub.. then, cincin awk belum, samping, pelekat, sejadah. so jam, wallet and belt awk belum sbb nak pg kat johor tu kan..

sy baru 2 minggu kat paeds.. takutnye.. long way to go ni.. kwn sy grad UPM, kene extend sbb xdpt jawab soalan time assessment. takut. sy grad indon.. malaysian grad pun xlepas. ini kan sy.. oh myyyyy! Cub, doakan Bow! please doakan Bow selamat kt paeds.. and Bow sentiasa alu2kan kehadiran Cub.. if Cub busy, bow try datang Kemaman k? unless Cub pg offshore mmg susah la kan.. huhu!

ape2 pun.. Bow syg sgt2 Cub.. take care.. Bow doakan kite both jodoh berpanjangan.. amin!

Bow Busy Lagi

While I am off from duty...again...bow plak tibe2 busy sgt skrg...second tagging dia yg dr dulu dia mengadu takut sgt...sian bow...mmg busy pn..kerja masuk pkol 7 sampai pkol 12 mlm for a week. nk dapat ckp dgn dia pn before dia tidur je...huuu...xpe bow...cub phm...i believe ade hikmah di sebalik benda ni...mcm org2 tua ckp kan...syg bini tinggal2 kan...either bow perasan or x...kalo kita da lame xjmpe..once kita jmpe...kita rase cam happy and over2 excited sgt...huuu...rasa legaaaa sgt bile dpt jmpe...i feel sooo good that moment and i believe we can't never get that chance to feel that way if we meet everyday...huuu

Whatever it is...cub doakan bow selamat abeskan HO bow dgn success. especially department PAED yg knonnye horror sgt ni...heeee...

Bow...cub slalu terfikir cam mane our life for 2 or 3 years from now...you know right it will be tough...cub akan cube yg terbaik utk kita...and i know bow pn akan buat yg terbaik...cub just harap bow dpt trime cub dan kerjaya cub seadanye...bow tau kan bende yg cub pling takut skali...yg dr dulu cub takut utk bcinta...apetah lg brumahtangga...lalu bow pon berkata... "chill la broo". huuu...yup only bow can make me chill...i need u bow...syg awk... :)

-cub-

maafkan saya bow...

Hi my cute baby bow! huuu...while cub writing this bow mst da start kerje. xboleh call sgt da...nnt kaco dia. heee

Btw...I really want to apologize for not able to coming back again. Bow pn sgt stress pasal ni...tp what can i do. Actually cub already ask my boss to come back to land. but my boss really want me to learn this coming job. sebab job yg bakal buat ni sgt2 la rare bow...sooo he himself want cub to convince bow that this is a good opportunity for cub to develop. bile difikirkan mmg btul la ckp boss cub tu...not everyone is given this chance...i'm considered lucky since i had been trusted by my boss to join this. That's is the positive things... plus the next job we will run together with company that i plan to apply for the new job jgk...so it's a good opportunity for me to.

I know kita da nk kawin...and u must know that is always my 1st priority. but sometime this kind of things happen. like what i warn u time nk kenal2...this is how oil n gas people work. huuu...bkn sy nak...but that how kiteorg cari rezeki. Cub harap sgt bow leh phm...

Cub xnk bg harapan apa2 lg kat bow. tp what i can promise...once i get back to land, i will find u n hug u..bcoz cub rindu sgt dkt bow...

-cub-

depression and loneliness

cub kene pergi kerja lagi.. it has been 2 weeks+ cub pergi offshore.. bow rase sedih sgt2.. and the worst part is that bow xtau nak ckp dgn siape pasal ni. nk call cub xboleh sbb die tgh kerja. its either ckp dgn gtalk or tggu cub jela yg call.

anyway, it has been 9 wonderful months since i first know cub. kenal 9 bulan, jumpe 1st time 7 bulan kan awk? dah bertunang pun. now tunggu tarikh untuk diijabkabulkan je. which is in january insyaAllah..

cub, awk tau x, blog ni penting sgt untuk sy.. sbb this is where i turn to when i miss you.
and yes i really do miss you. so much that i cried in the middle of the night not knowing to whom should i say or talk to.. sy xnak bebankan awk sbb sy tau awk busy kerja and u must miss me a lot too.. if sy nangis, lemah la lagi cub nak kerja. so i have to act strong despite this fragility..

so bile bow lemah, bow bukak balik gambar ni.. ingat how much cub syg bow, and bow senyum balik..

cub,  bow harap cub dpt balik land semula sabtu ni.. bow x tau la bow boleh tahan x if cub xbalik..
anyway, sy syg awk cub..take care tau..

Stress dan Kekuatan

selamaat pagi Cub!

Cub mesti tgh penat sgt2 sebab baru balik kerja for few hours dah.. Bow mintak maaf sgt2 yg Bow suke buat Cub stress since Bow start kerja ni.. Bow nak Cub tau yang Bow sayang Cub sgt2 sebab awk try sgt2 untuk faham sy..

Bow dah start kerja since 18hb June 2012, isnin lepas.. ever since then Bow dh jadi stress sgt2.. sebab berbezanye jadi medical student and a real doctor.. semua org mesti ingat jadi doctor ni best sbb org hormat kite, gaji bnyk etc.. tapi diorg kena jgk ingat the UGLY part of becoming a doctor.. terbuka mata Bow time dah start kerja ni.. huhu.. and menyesal sgt2 time student dulu Bow pemalas nak study.. 

kat sini, Bow sorg je student USU-AUCMS yang baru masuk bekerja, yang lain semua student Manipal Melaka College yg from few days dah dgn diorg, Bow boleh nampak la knowledge diorg mmg jauh lagi mantap dari Bow.. so menyebabkan Bow lg rase inferior and takut nak kerja.. Roomate Bow pun budak UPM.. mmg sah2 la die hebat.. so nak xnak Bow kene push diri Bow and this is where Cub banyak membantu.. tapi kesian Cub sbb sampai die pun jd tension.. Bow mintak maaf ye Cub?

ni baru start orientation.. belum lagi masuk department yang Bow kene masuk.. 1st posting Bow is in Obstetric and Gynecology.. diorg kate kat sini ok, mcm2 la tips.. but like it or not, Bow kene study banyak la.. Bow suke O&G ni sebenarnye.. tp tulah, xtau lagi mcm mane bile start kerja.. blank and blur tu mesti ade.. huhu! xpela.. Bow mesti berusaha and stay positive! jangan negative sgt mcm Cub selalu nasihat..

Alhamdulillah Cub selalu ade kat sisi Bow even bukan secara physically kt sini.. die ingatkan Bow utk mengaji and selalu bersyukur dgn ape yg Bow ade.. Alhamdulillah Bow harap sgt dapt disatukan dgn Cub secepat mungkin sbb Bow rase and berdoa sgt2 Cub la pasangan Bow di dunia dan di akhirat nanti..

Take care Cub.. sayang awk sangat2.. 

Boring day. 19 june 2012. Bakersfield.

Boringnye hari ni...nak kerja takde kerja. nk tgk tv da abes channel da godeh. nk g gym pnt lak kang kalo dpt call suruh keje nnt. nk keluar shopping...haippp..xleh cub..simpan duit utk kawin. nak call bow tkut kaco dia plak...maklum laa..baru hari kedua kerja. btw, bow semakin hari semakin hot sejak bergelar doctor ni......aaaaaaaa....hahaha..bow mst kate sy annoying skrg...

Tinggg..dpt idea! tepon mak...hihi..tp tu pon xdpt ckp lame sbb mak tgh borak dgn kawan2 class arab dia. tp siyesly...ckp ngn mak hilang trus stress.

"mak...amin bosan...xtau nak wat ape da. mak tgh watpe"
"mak g class arab..tp ttbe class cancel. last2 borak2 je dgn kawan2 mak dkt sini"
"ohhh...ok...byk btl class mak ni"
"hahaha *gelak mak*... amin bosan eh...kalo amin bosan bace la Quran...Quran tu byk manfaatnya"
"ohhhh..ok..nnt amin bace eh mak" **dlm hati...apsal aku xterfikir bace Quran..watpa aku bwk Quran g sini kan
"amin sihat?"
"sihat mak...mak..xpela..mak borak2 la dgn kawan mak k.."
"ok amin...jaga diri..byee...assalamualaikum"

Aishhh...pdhal ade je terfikir nk bace Quran.tp xtau ar kenapa xde kekuatan nk bukak Kitab tu. Dugaan syaitan kuat betul. Nasib baik mak ade...amk ckp trus dtg semangat...thanks mak...

sooo...sementara tunggu margrib...tulis la jap blog ni sbb rindu dkt bow. apalah bow tgh wat skrg ni eh...dlm class dgr ceramah agknye. BORING BOW...meh call cub mehhh lg best.hahaha... alaaa..bow da keje da lps ni. mkin lonely la aku skrg. dem it...dulu aku punye risau bow lonely bile da keje nnt...rupenye aku pon rasa mkin lonely bile bow da keje. hurmmm..apa la bow rasa agknye skrg ni...

Apa2 pon I always pray for the best for us...and for her. Semoga dia boleh bwk diri baik2 dkt Temerloh nuhh. Take care bowwwwwww.......kebaBOWWW.....

-cub-