depression and loneliness

cub kene pergi kerja lagi.. it has been 2 weeks+ cub pergi offshore.. bow rase sedih sgt2.. and the worst part is that bow xtau nak ckp dgn siape pasal ni. nk call cub xboleh sbb die tgh kerja. its either ckp dgn gtalk or tggu cub jela yg call.

anyway, it has been 9 wonderful months since i first know cub. kenal 9 bulan, jumpe 1st time 7 bulan kan awk? dah bertunang pun. now tunggu tarikh untuk diijabkabulkan je. which is in january insyaAllah..

cub, awk tau x, blog ni penting sgt untuk sy.. sbb this is where i turn to when i miss you.
and yes i really do miss you. so much that i cried in the middle of the night not knowing to whom should i say or talk to.. sy xnak bebankan awk sbb sy tau awk busy kerja and u must miss me a lot too.. if sy nangis, lemah la lagi cub nak kerja. so i have to act strong despite this fragility..

so bile bow lemah, bow bukak balik gambar ni.. ingat how much cub syg bow, and bow senyum balik..

cub,  bow harap cub dpt balik land semula sabtu ni.. bow x tau la bow boleh tahan x if cub xbalik..
anyway, sy syg awk cub..take care tau..